February 2012
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Sometimes I think to myself,
This relationship is killing me, and I just want to end it, but I don’t know how.
Other times, I think, I just want to live with him and cuddle every day for forever!
MOST times, I just think about becoming famous and eating really good food that’s served in super large plates that’s totally overpriced but also healthy.
People will read about me eating in US Weekly and think...
I think I've decided what I want to do for the...
And by that I mean, I think I’ve decided the top 3 things I want to get into for the next ten years of it.
I will have a band, and we will go far. Music will ALWAYS come first.
But, before photojournalism, I want to write scripts. I can do it. I know I can do it. I’ve done it, so.
I just need to fucking graduate.
Okay, future. Let’s do this.
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Rolling. ROLLING. Sound speeds. Mark. Camera...
Just when I thought I had it all figured out.
Here I was, thinking I was pursuing photojournalism if music doesn’t work out. And so, as part of my project, I started documenting the making of a film, and because of how detail-oriented and grammatically obsessed I am, now I’m actually…working on a film. Half of the people are learning, the other half have been there for years....
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Cameron: There is the most hipster graffiti on the man's bathroom wall.
Me: What is it?
Cameron: I don't really know-it was just...a long explanation concerning tuna.
Me: ...seriously?
Cameron: Yeah, and then somehow it was connected to Pink.
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I cant stand people who blame other things and people for their own problems. I mean, sure, my mom’s definitely the reason behind a lot of things, but ultimately, how I handle my own existence, is how I handle it. I’m not gonna blame it on a guy, or a horrible experience, or a fucking illness. I blame myself. If that’s a problem, it’s a problem I’m okay with.
I miss...
I woke up to Sting followed by Enya. I was...
Still not outta bed, though.
January 2012
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Shooting on location today.
Hopefully I’ll get some good portrait shots. I’m still trying to figure out when I changed so drastically. Since when did I switch from going the nice attention whore, to the bitch in the background? When did I become so INTO myself?
Someday, I hope that I get a zillion followers on Twitter, and everyone will love being my friend again, and I can flourish them with vacations and love...
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Is it wrong that I've had two years to write this...
Eh.
For my new year's resolution, I decided I wanted...
So I just totally finished off a box of Cheese-Its.
If I vomit though, I’m telling you, NEVER AGAIN.
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Irony?
Secretly, I just don’t want to be in school anymore so I can live in a one bedroom with my boyfriend and we can whisper “I love you” to each other every moment we’re not at work, and I can play him the ukelele and he’ll appreciate it because in a fantasy world he appreciates that kind of stuff. And we’ll watch cartoons and he’ll feed me Cheese-Its and...
December 2011
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Dear Karma,
I’ve learned my lesson I swear it’ll never happen again I promise now just…now just go away, ok? cool thank you
lemme know if there’s anything I can do…solve world peace, fight aids, stop harrassing others, you just let me know.
-your best till just now, J. Kamel
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Last Deere Class. Notes.
The greatest intensity in a relationship is through opening up and letting go. It’s activity. Not passivity.
You want to be the one that forces them to open up…to get through those boundaries. That’s something in you that makes you want to feel special.
Whoever likes the other person less, is the one who has the power. And it is a game. It’s not a game like a hobby, but...
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In the middle of reading Judith Butler:
My professor throws the book down on the floor. “THAT BOOK DOES NOT OWN ME.”
A minute goes by.
“Okay, I’m gonna pick it up now. …BUT THAT’S MY CHOICE.”
November 2011
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It is here in the wee hours of midnight where I...
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All this fucking Sims Social bullshit has FINALLY...
I see what you did there, EA Games. I see what you did there.
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You know why I like philosophy? Because it makes me feel like maybe there are other people who won’t think I’m fucked up.
Why can’t we just live our lives as SINGULAR people, appreciating others for their singularity? Why do we have to have exclusivity based on some fucking social morale? It just destroys the individual. Therefore, what you love..is destroyed. You RUIN what you...
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"When you orgasm, you don't yell 'OH FLYING...
I don’t know professor.
I know some pretty FUCKED UP people.
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Sometimes I want to drop out of school and live...
Other times I think “Who would want to commit to living with their significant other?”
Then I either start eating or thinking of creative ways to kill myself.
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October 2011
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FUCK ALL OF THESE PROJECTS, AND MIDTERMS, AND THE LAST SIX DAYS OF OCTOBER WHERE I COULD BE MAKING A GRAND, BUT CAN’T NOW BECAUSE FUCK THIS COLD, AND THE FACT THAT MY OTHER WORK IS SUFFERING, AND EVERYTHING IS SUFFERING AND I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE.
IT’S PROBABLY BAD KHARMA. Very very deserved bad kharma.
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There's a song I've always wanted to quote but I...
It’s my birthday tomorrow. No one here could know. I was born this Thursday, 22 years ago. -Switchfoot.
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My Goals for Today
I will post at the end of the day, explaining what I managed to get done. PLEASE harass me if I didn’t do at least half of these things:
My bio bibliography
My bio homework
My French workbook exercises
STUDY for my French test WITH Flashcards
Study for my stats midterm
STRETCH GOALS: My philosophy fable, calling my dad about dental insurance, starting Nissan tests.
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This is kind of long..but...it's better than...
I love my jobs, I love all three of them respectively for my own reasons. I love helping people, and I love my girls at Vickys. I also like the benifits from working there also. I appreciate the hours. But it can get rough. It’s retail.
I love tourguiding. As much as I say I don’t sometimes, it makes me so much money, and I love most of the people that end up going on my tours. My...
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“The things we value, if we hold onto them so tightly that we can’t laugh...”
– Michael Deere
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Things I've gotten into the habit of doing lately,...
1.Working too much. Ask me whats going on at school. I wouldnt know. Ask me what’s new at Victoria’s Secret. Well, since you asked, we just launched a new very sexy balconet, with a matching garter slip. It comes in black and red, black and white, and black and green. We are now launching holiday colours, and all of the bras in the store have new designs.
2. Buying too much at work....
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Turn that Profound Upside Down
As I find myself randomly sitting in my mom's kitchen with just a bra on eating melted cake from a box.
Me: It's so weird where I end up sometimes.
My mom: Oh, you mean, like, you end up so far from where you start?
Me: No, it's that it's irony. My whole life is just so ironic. Everything that happens is just either severe irony, or unfortunate, amusing circumstance. You know?
My mom: It's like my life. The other day, when I was going to Occupy Boston, I wanted to wash my shirt with the American flag on it. And I did just a load of my laundry, and I checked everything when I did it, and then when I went to take it out of the dryer, one of Fran's shirts had SOMEHOW gotten in there, and it said "Where's My Bailout?" and I thought "Oh that's perfect I'll wear that!" So I mean, that stuff happens.
Me: ....no, that's not...that's not what I was saying.
My mom: Well I mean, it may not be IRONIC...but it WAS weird.
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Watchtilltheworldbelievesinme:
RULE OF TUMBLR. WHEN YOU SEE THIS, YOU REBLOG IT.
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If you've ever wondered what it's like to be me,...
I wish certain people wouldn’t try to recreate past relationships with new ones when they can just..have the past relationship back.
SHE’S A PSYCHO. BE PREPARED TO RUIN YOUR LIFE.
I wish boyfriends would stop…being mad at their girlfriends for doing girlfriend things. I wish girlfriends didn’t get the silent treatment for days on end, and spend each weekend crying.
...
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a connoisseur of lurid spectacle: A Protester's... →
coffeeshakes:
I figured I should write down what happened today, before I forget or before too many stories get muddled together.
My friend, my partner, and I arrived at Zucotti Park around 3 for the march, which began quickly, after everyone shared various rules. (No violence, write the…
September 2011
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Can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over...
It’s not just for love (or the Sox apparently, but we won’t talk about that) but it’s for heartbreak and the knowledge that every reason your life is so shitty is absolutely your fault.
I mean…it has to be, right?
I dont even know what I’m saying. Wake me up when September ends. Because fuck this month right now.
I’ve been listening to Adele and pretty much...
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One-third of the world’s men are circumcised, but... →
chuckjim:
Circumcision was associated with frequent orgasm difficulties in Danish men and with a range of frequent sexual difficulties in women, notably orgasm difficulties, dyspareunia and a sense of incomplete sexual needs fulfilment. Thorough examination of these matters in areas where male circumcision is more common is warranted.
Looks like I’m not sleeping with two-thirds of the...
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I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all...
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I will eat you from your inside out. I will take away everything you’ve ever loved. I will sacrifice my life to make sure yours is miserable. I will make you want to die, not out of sadness, not out of lonliness, but as an escape to FEAR.
You are 18 years of trash. And you will be mother fucking destroyed. That is all.
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If you fucking think I'm going to sit here and cry...
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